The last couple of weeks have been rough! I have been grieving for two families who have each lost a son within the last year. The most recent loss was just last week. There are moments when I feel the air is actually being sucked from my lungs because I hurt so bad for them. It has hit me really hard and my prayers are with them constantly.
I have been living with such a heavy heart, so in an attempt to just function, a few days ago I went out to my garden that I love so much and thinned out the rhubarb plant. I cleaned the rhubarb and placed it on the kitchen counter where it stayed for 2 days. (I never let anything sit on my counter for more than an hour).
Yesterday I walked by and noticed the rhubarb in the kitchen. It was beginning to get limp at the ends so I figured I better take action whether I felt like it or not. I cleaned up the rhubarb again and set about making my husband the Rhubarb Sauce he loves so much.
For me cooking is so therapeutic. I was at peace in the kitchen and my breathing seemed to come a little easier. I was even humming by the end of the project.
Life is full of unexpected moments, both joyful and tragic. Finding a way to be strong and keep moving forward is key. I draw my strength from God, first and foremost. He is always wise, always knowing, always there. I am thankful that He has given me the ability to find peace and joy with something so simple as working in my beautiful kitchen :)